I glad you got some sleep. You need to do what's best for you. I know the panic attack feeling. I got it once while seriously discussing leaving my husband. I suddenly couldn't breathe.
If you continue to live in the same house he needs to be civil to you. I know you didn't like my point before that you were doing too much to please him, and he wasn't making any effort on your part, but you will still need that. Even a partnership is a two-way street.
I hope you will get the understanding that you need.
