Husband, Don't be so hard on yourself. Resistance is part of the change process. All of my GAL activities (dancing, writing) involve resistance. Every time I go to a lesson, a dance venue, a writing group, I initially have excuses as to why I shouldn't go.
We learn and grow by identifying what our insecurities are, ignoring them, and moving forward in spite of them. Feel the fear and do it any way, advises Susan Jeffers in her book.
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CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."