Just wanted to check in and give you some more hugs. I'm thinking about you and glad that you are hanging in there.
You know, it may be that now that he feels like he has "gotten his way" so to speak that he may not WANT his way for long. If he was looking at this as a challenge for him and now the challenge is gone... you just never know. He just may pull his head out and realize what he is giving up. If that happens and whether you choose to let him back into your life will be up to you, but it's very possible that he might still come around. The best thing you can do for yourself right now is to keep your head held high knowing that you have done so much and have been through so much to save your marriage. Yes, you deserve to be loved and cherished, my dear friend, and I have no doubt that you will have that again, whether it's with your H or not. Remember what a wonderful, kind, caring person, wife, and mother that you are.
You know, just a thought, but if you are at all interested in still reconciling with him, you might consider trying what I did as far as not talking about the R or OW at all and just being flirtatious towards him and outgoing and having a care-free attitude around him. Maybe take a day trip or weekend trip when your work frees up a bit and don't communicate with him at all while you're gone, if that's possible with your business, and let him know that you're going away to think about some things. Leave it at that, and then go dark while you're gone. I have no doubt that when I went to Vegas and went dark that H took notice and that that was a big turning point for us. Just something to think about. It tore my heart out to pretend like I didn't care when he didn't come home at night and to just be perky and happy the next day when I talked to him. It absolutely killed me inside, but somehow he is finding his way back to us. Whether it's because of what I did or whether it's because things fizzled out on their own with OW, who knows, but you might thinking about giving it a shot or some form of it when and if you want to try any further.
I'm thinking about you, sweet lady. You hang in there and hold your head high. You are a wonderful person with a huge heart. Be proud of that.
