Tiny Ray of Light...Pt III

[NMHurting]

Jazz, I know you're back from your workout. Put the nail in the end of the 2x4 and get in here please. I feel like I really, really screwed up.

[NMHurting]

I don't think you did anything wrong at all.

Even the ILY slip?

[789]

No 2x4's showed up last nite. Are you feeling a bit better about the convo you had with her, and stop thinking about letting the ILY slip, it will be ok.

[NMHurting]

Actually I barely slept. I'm afraid she's going to tell me to take the job and push us further away.

[789]

Come on, don't try to out think each other, you know we end up always being wrong about it. PMA, stick with it.

[FaithLOVEHope]

sleeping is the #1 goal..when you don't sleep then the next day is always terrible...you need to work on sleeping first and foremost!!

[NMHurting]

I know sleep is a #1 goal. I just couldn't do it last night. I think i got about 3 hours.

But with the OM (aka friend) involved. I can't help but feel like the underdog. Of course I could give up my dream job anyway and just stay, taking the play out of her hands. But on the other hand being happy with what I do for a living would be a good start to GAL.

I'd dig ditches if it meant for my M to stay together.

[FaithLOVEHope]

i know you know that and I know that I sound a little silly saying that but when I was in the mental hospital that was what they watched the closest.

I also understand about the OM...I deal wity that daily and it does make you feel like the underdog but you are higher than that. So try not to think ahout it. The job you need to make the decision for you, and if you need to move to be happy in your job you need to do what makes you happy.

[NMHurting]

100 miles of separation isn't going to help things. I'm so confused. I feel like I shouldn't have even told her about it.

[789]

Maybe you shouldn't have, but you did so do not let it eat you alive. Possibly some good can come out of it. Keep those spirits up.