Thanks for the support HS, the stress at work is a good distraction and I'm starting to step up and do my part which makes it easier to deal with the stuff that is truly out of my control. It has unfortunately been a long road back at work since the bomb took so much out of me mentally, physically and emotionally. I'm feeling good tho' and ready to start kickin' ass and takin' names.
Hey ST, I being the good Christian boy I've always been have never had any Vegas stories that couldn't be shared, not planning to start now, besides I can live vicariously thru my co-workers, they're wild enough to make up for me!
J, I'm the one that came to the conclusion that I stopped dealing with my emotions as a way to cope back when my dad left and tho' I've developed and matured (albeit at differing rates) in every way but emotionally. My wife I believe has attachment/bonding/intimacy emotional issues of her own and that may be why we got together and why we made it this far with our emotional limitations. I also stopped growing spiritually at the same time since I'd be raised a strict bible based Christian and suddenly my parents do a 180 and I've drifted along on the strong basis I had built, but didn't develop or deepen my spirituality. My wife has spent a lot of time on hers and I think that is one of the ways we got fairly out of sync and she built a lot of resentment about my lack of interest or growth. Also emotionally my wife says she already went thru what I'm going thru during/after her 1st divorce so she figures that she is way ahead of me and my personal development in that area too. Anyhow that hopefully sheds some more light on the subject, if not I can try again.
Busy morning, trying to pack, get to work and finish some things before heading to the airport. No contact from my wife all day so I decided to call her on the way to the airport. She answered on the 2nd ring and asked "what was up?" I told her I was on the way to the airport and wanted to check on how her day was going. She told me that she had just gotten done with lunch, their case cancelled and it was pretty boring at work. I asked how bowling with the kids had gone and she told me all about it, she mentioned triyng to take them again tonight. I told her about my softball game and the minor league baseball game I'd gone to. We talked about 8-9 mins total, just a nice conversation in general. I told her I'd better go since I was at the airport and she told me to tell her brother hi and to have a safe trip. Later on when I'd boarded the plane and was about to have to turn off my cell phone I sent her a message "On plane, have fun with the kids" and she replied with "Thanks U 2." I got sick to my stomach on the bumpy ride into Vegas, I get car sick if I read, but don't think I've ever gotten sick on a plane before. I thought I was going to puke and tried everything I could think of to minimize the sickness. Landed with my lunch intacted, didn't know why, but I had been feeling sick to my stomach every afternoon for the 1st couple weeks when I started taking my AD meds and I'd taken them right before take off. Anyhow I sent my wife a txt msg when I landed that said "Made it. Got airsick at the end. Never had that happen before. Thought I was going to puke. Maybe because of the effexor or something. Hope u have a good day!" and she replied with "Have fun."
Met up with everyone at the airport and took the hotel limo from the airport to the hotel. We have 3 rooms, 2 of them are regular rooms with 2 beds and 2 people in them, the 3rd room is some kind of presidential suite or something, 2 story ceiling with 2 stories of windows looking out on the pool area, big bar, living room, bedroom upstairs with nice tub with windows looking out from it, nicest hotel room I've been in, too bad I'm staying in the regular room. We're meeting with some bank owners tomorrow in that room so it should be nice to hang out in for a while. Had some food to eat that would hold us over until a later dinner at 10:30pm at the steakhouse. Discussed the new business idea that we're pitching tomorrow and how it will work and what we need from the bank (BIL says he wants a billion $ credit line to buy houses with!). We all brainstormed for an hour or two, then split up with 2 of us going up to our room for internet access and working, the rest feeding $ into slot machines and other types of gambling downstairs in the casino.
