I am at the library. I am wondering if it was a mistake to suggest and carry out the new schedule, so we wouldn't be around each other...
It is so hard to guess at what would be best to do. He was going to ask me if he could stay and be committed to the family, but not the M. Would that have left the door open? Would it have shown how much I was willing to be the doormat for a change, accept his influence and decisions?
Or would it just show him that I am a pathetic, desperate loser? He wanted to think about the schedule for the summer, and I said we could try it for a few days...
If he is codependant and enmeshed, why the rejection; why does he see being alone as a better option?
I do want to save my marriage...isn't that what we are all here for?
