Well, talked to H like I always do - he always wants me to call him to wake him up (when it's our afternoon, it's his a.m.)

Didn't answer the first few times, then answered & didn't sound like he had just woken up. Music in background (alarm clock?) Been cheated on female intuition kicks in. I asked if he was already up and he said 'no.' Talked for a few, but I'm feeling sick to my stomach, been having this wierd feeling for a few days now to be honest.

He did bring up me visiting and said he was going to try to be able to work in the building where I will be staying so he would be there the whole time I'm visiting.

I finally asked if he was ok and he said 'yeah, what's wrong, babe' I said 'nothing, you just sounded funny when I called so I was just making sure you are ok.'

Probably nothing, but I hate feeling this way. I hate that *I feel* he has made me to feel this way and constantly question what he is doing, etc.

Maybe I just forgot my AD this a.m. Sh*t, I hate this!!!!


Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10