Stillme's Chapters Continue Some More

[stillme]

Actually, Sunshine, I didnt get that he was pizzed at all. O/C my choice how i 'take' it, but I choose to take it in a not-bad way.

He called me
Pos1: He already had the dr # etc. Maybe he truly forgot I'd given it to him not 2 mo ago. Maybe not.
Pos2:Instead of being business-like: "Thank you very much. See ya. Bye" click. He talked. Stayed on the p hone when he surely didnt have to.
Pos3: Talked about his feelings. Uh, sure, they were his feelings OF BEING SICK, but, lol, I'll take it. Seriously, he was telling me How He Was Doing (We haven't had a How Are You convo - on either side - since Jan.)
Pos4: Even after being given an 'out' to end the call (getting beeped), he said he'd call back, and he did.
Pos5: W/only my "uh-huh" to go on, he kept talking. About himself, yeah. To gain my sympathy? maybe. Something else/more? who knows. He did it.
Pos6: When I wished him well, he THANKED me. And it wasn't a business-like Thank You (as has happened on occasion).
Pos7: The fact that he didn't make serious/normal or (as our norm has been ) UGLY eye contact can only be a pos. Was he embarrassed? Thinking I was gonna, gasp!, Have False Hope? Unsure how to be around me? Who knows. But nothing about it was pissing or ugly.

Maybe the story came across wrong. Again, l ack of smiley faces? But I didn't hold my ground (neg) so much as act the caring, respectful friend he can turn to.

And, PS - He would never tell the kids I didn't care if he lived or died. Besides the fact that he knows that's not true cuz I've told him I still love him, he wouldn't subject his (our!) kids to being in the middle like that.