It is finally out, he wants a D

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Well H just called me at lunch to tell me of his plans tonite with the kids. He proceeded to tell me that he took out the stuff I had mentioned this morning last week to his fathers and that he would be going there in the next week or so. He referenced the night he caved and said he needed to leave because that wasn't right and I suppose he didn't want it to occur again. I again explained that I had a brain and did not feel used and could make my own decisions.

He told me he would tell the kids he was going to his father's temporarily. I asked if that was true and he said no, he just wanted to ease his leaving with them.

He told me on the good side that after a few days his father may annoy him again like last time and he may push him down the stairs. I said then perhaps you will get the house.

Then he said he would see me late tonite if I was there-don't know what that means. And said he was sorry, I said don't bother. Then he told me careful coming home. I bit my tongue which is permanently severed anyway, and didn't say anything. Like he cares now, don't bother.

So I had to run to the bathroom and cry. My co-worker came with me to help. One of the few friends I truly have.

Any suggestions from anyone? I don't know where to go or what to do from here.

On another note, I am on vacation next week and couldn't find anything I could afford to do. So I mentioned to the kids about going camping. They asked if H would be there, I said no. S11 said it would be no fun without him. Yipee. That hurt more than he really knew. I am so upset right now I don't know what to do. I really want to go home but I don't have the time and would just mope and feel sorry for myself anyway. I am best at that.