I think I am loosing it. Last night I had a migraine so I wrapped my pillow around my head and held it as tight as I could. The pain would not go away. While laying there suffering, a thought went thru my head. I was at my sister's shop yesterday evening doing some book keeping for her when H came to pick up our daughter (she works for my sister). Anyway, he didn't just pull up outside at the time she gets off, he came in 15 minutes early and joked around with my sister. She said he comes in early each time he picks our daughter up. Sometimes he justs sits over in the waiting area for her to get off and other times if no one is in there, he jokes around with them.
The thing I like about this is that he still enjoys being around my family. He has even stayed after getting hair cuts and visited with my family. I came to realize he isn't ready to give up on being a part of my family.
He may want his freedom and space but he does little things now and again to make sure he is still included in our lives. It took a migraine and pain to make me see this. I guess the migraine was a sign from above. I had to sit still long enough to let myself absorb everything going on.
I am feeling so much better today. Not only does my head not hurt, I am feeling like a lot of stress is lifted off my shoulders. I feel calm today.
You would think after 28 months of being apart, I would start to lose feelings for H but even after this much time, I love him more and more each day.
So, how is everyone else doing today? Any hot plans for the weekend?
T2, Glad to see that you are feeling better. It is also awsome that your H is still involved in YOUR family as well. Wish I could say the same about my sitch. Neither one of us wants to be around the others family right now because of all of the nasty things that were said by both sides.
You are a gem and it is awsome that you have been able to keep everyone together through all of this crap. Stay strong and positive sister.
As far as this weekend. I have no plans other than sppending every waking moment with just me and the kids and no STBXW. We are going to have a great weekend with whatever we decide to do.
Hope yours goes the same.
Ben 32 STBXW 29 3 kids (D1,S4,SD8) (1 dog 5months) Status: Fighting for the Kids.
"The only thing we know about future developments is that they will develope."
Sometimes having a few days by yourself is a good thing. Try to find things to do that you wouldn't do if the kids were around. I find myself enjoying certain things more. I like going into stores and having the time to just look around without the kids fussing about being ready to leave.
Some days I am strong and others I am so weak I don't feel I can get out of bed. I really try to be positive about things. I guess right now positivity is all I have.
Enjoy the weekend with the kids. Mine are with H this weekend but I am ready for a break so that is ok. Since we went on vacation last week, they were with me every day all day long. Plus 7 hours in the car both ways was enough for me for a bit. Looking for peace and quiet this weekend.
T2, sweetheart, my loveslave... I apolkogize for not being here more for you. My week has been unbelievably busy. What with job hunting, preparing for the trip tomorrow, and my nephew trying to off himself.
I am sorry I haven't been around much, you'll have to forgive me......
