Well she did in fact come over yesterday right after my last post. We talked about who was gonna get what and who was gonna pay what bills, we agreed. We then went to the courthouse and filed for divorce. Scary how easy it is. She went and paid 6$ for a packet of papers at the library, filled them out, went to the county clerk who put an official time stamp on it, and now we have officially filed for a divorce. If the judge agrees with how we have set everything up then it will be final, over and done with forever and ever in 60 days.
The whole time before she filed I couldnt even look at her yesterday, if she asked a question I answered her. I sat there and watched the county clerk lady put a big stamp on all those papers that said "FILED". We walked out of the courthouse got in the car, and right as we was backing out, I jokingly said well you got what you wanted, now when do I get what I want for our anniversery (first light hearted things said of the day). She knew exactly what I was talking about and immediately started smiling, looked at me and said what. I said sex. She said ok. My jaw just about hit the floor. We hadnt been intimate since the day before she up and left me. So then things lighten up dramatically and on the way home we talk about what we expect to happen and how we are gonna handle this. All I asked is for her to give me a fair chance like she would any other guy. She admitted she has seen good changes in me, but doesnt know if they are for real and will last, she still thinks my changes are just part of some ploy to just get her back to the same old marriage. I asked her if it would be ok for me to ask her out sometimes. She said yes, I'll date you, but dont pressure me and dont get mad at me if I say no.
Went to the house and had sex for the first time since she walked away. She acted really disconnected during the whole thing, but I joked with her and made her laugh. I said and did the same things jokingly as I said and did during our "first time". I could tell she wasnt even letting herself enjoy it, I asked her why, she said she aint doing this for her, she is doing it for me. But there were a few times where no matter how hard she tried to make it look like she didnt like it, I could tell she was enjoying herself a few times, haha. We were always very sexually active. We never went more than 3 or 4 days without it. Her sex drive was starting to slow way down though after our kids were born. She also gave me this speech how sex doesnt mean a thing to her anymore, how she didnt even want it anymore ect.
I wonder how common that is. Go file for a divorce, then go home and have sex. Seemed pretty surreal to me.
