Well, never talked to H yesterday so of course now my mind is racing in a way it shouldn't be. I emailed him and rec'd one back. The problem is that his seem always so impersonal. Nothing lovey, dovey, but maybe that's just a 'guy' thing. Every once in awhile he's opened up and said how much he misses us, etc. Still no mention of the whole sitch we went through and maybe, just maybe, how much he appreciates me standing by him through it all. Maybe that's all I want. Some validation for my actions -- that I did the right thing. I guess I know in my heart I did the right thing, my S2 always has a hard time at night missing daddy. I can't imagine if we were actually separated w/ D in the future and how I would explain that to the boys. My heart still aches though so I don't allow myself to think about all the A's, the harsh, mean words that were said to me by the man I married. It's still unbelievable to me that the man I swore to love & cherish did the things he did, but I'm counting on time to heal.


Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10