When in doubt, do nothing. Sit quietly and the answers will come to you. It's obvious that this is bothering you right now. Do you have a priest or minister you can talk to? What about a really close friend?
It will be okay.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
