Ok Swashy, here we go. It is extremely important that you recognize what this is. You layed this out there as a friend that you were hanging out with and I believe that's what you had in mind....sort of. I believe that you may have needed to see if you could be around a female with "interests" in you and be comfortable with it.
Now you need to figure that out. I think it's great you called her and filled her in on your sitch. She needs to know 100% of where you are at because after the fiasco that you both have been through itr is imperative that honesty and being up front be a huge part for the two of you even if it does end up just being a friendship.
So what did you feel Scott, that's what I imagine all these folks want to know. Was there any spark? Any romance? Any warm and fuzzy feelings in your loins? I am not asking this way just to get a laugh, I want to hear all of it, just as all these folks do. I understand she's just a friend, but reality is that when you have been without the attention of a woman because your wife is so damned closed off for as long as she has been. Feelings occur my friend.
I am not saying you would pursue that or even are looking for that, but it is ok to have those feelings after so long. Hell it may even help you to figure out your wife, I mean really, can she even be that woman and give you those feelings, not today, thats for sure.
Bottom line Swashy, you deserve to have love, you deserve to be desired, and you deserve a female friend. Your wife is none of those right now, she's just the mother of your children and nothing more. Her choice, not yours, but it is reality. She's shut herself off to you and you don't deserve it.
Just my thoughts buddy.... I have a semi just thinking about what a great time you had........
