Just a quick update. Things are going okay. My fitness regimen is turning out to be a marathon, which is analogous to what rebuilding life and relationships will likely be.
I find I am highly sensitive right now. I enjoy the cuddles and kisses. The affection is initiated by me. I forced W to come out for fathers day dinner, which older two children bought for me/us. She did not want to come. I was happy to see W and DD chatting friendliesh. Hopefully I have helped break some of that ice. Still have to thank DD for her effort there (did so with W.)
W has made some baby steps dealing with her anger frustration issues.
I feel the same with regard to the M.
I hope that by keeping things positive, and moving in a positive direction, it will be better no matter what happens.
If I am to share my life I really really want it to be with someone who is at least somewhat giving.
I wonder if something is forcing me to wait. I suppose I am still being patient. I need to keep from being distracted by the sich. It is very tough some days.
I suppose I was always so proud, in a slightly arrogant sort of way, of how long we were together. That I (we) had the formula for a successful marriage, when others did not. I was perfect, or course \:D anyway having this all fall away into the abyss of shattered dreams is what I am thinking about today. Somewhere, like all of you, we find the strength to go forward.

That will be my task for this week, to move forward with inspiration. Wish me luck!