Need to start talking to myself again about why I am in this fight, I know for my personal reasons, but are they enough. Is it worth seeing my son so torn up?
So you think he will be less torn up if you quit? I'm going through my own little hell in all of this too, but I'll make my Stand for my kids first, me second. They need mommy and daddy together. So does your boy, and you know that.
No I don' think he would be less torn up, but I sometimes think the pain would be a shorter duration. I will not give up and I will keep trying. Just better to vent in here than with other people who are around our situation or just hold it in my brain. This place is a good outlet for me.
Originally Posted By: 789
I hate what I have done to my family over the last decade, I cannot change what I have done, I cannot change my past prior to that either.
I don't remember where I got this from, possibly from this site, but I wrote it in my notes and just dug it up when I read what you posted. Could be from DB or DR, I'm not sure. RIGHT ACTIONS FOR THE FUTURE ARE THE BEST APOLOGIES FOR WRONG ONES IN THE PAST. Now, go show them your right actions.
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I am trying to do the right actions, working hard on that daily. According to W, the only problem was my alcohol use, and what comes with that. So with that in mind, I have completely stopped drinking. I do everything to keep an upbeat attitude around her, not always succesful. Do everything in my power to keep my son happy and feeling good about himself.
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
