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[waw1978]

I am new to this. I was on the verge of being a WAW when I found this site. I have been repeatedly telling my DH that I was unhappy and he just didn’t want to hear it. Over two years of this. I asked for MC many times and he refused. So I emotionally divorced him since I could see no hope in the situation. I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown because I am so unhappy and he continues to tell me that there was nothing wrong. I began to doubt my sanity. If he says there is nothing wrong I must be imagining that there is. A year and half of IC for me and I finally decided that I am not asking him for MC anymore. I just need to get away from him to sort out my feelings. I have grown resentful of him. I find him completely annoying and dislike him. I knew I needed to do something before this turned to hate. I again present this to him and tell him that I need to leave and I need space. Now he is trying to get me to stay and smothering me. He is backtracking. We agreed I would stay at my parents for a while so I can work on not being annoyed by him. Now he doesn’t think this is a good idea. He thinks I should stay and we should go to MC immediately. I need suggestions on how to proceed. I don’t think I can work on a marriage with a man that I find annoying and don’t like (possibly starting to hate). I don’t think at this point that there is anything he can do because I am not receptive and forcing me to remain around him all the time isn’t going change how I feel. Please help.