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((((ALI))))

Honey you have been sucked into this drama for so long now that I am afraid you are getting lost in it.

Please gp back to that nice safe calm place, where you were trusting God for answers.

You can not change your Husband, only yourself.

There comes a time when enough is enough.

Boundaries need to be placed and kept and followed through.

(((((((((hugs))))))))))
posted to me by BND...

Yeah I have been having nightmares and I think I need a break from all of this you are right . I AM exhausted!!!! Who I am is just fine. I am ok.
;\) Really I am.
I just need the boundaries set so I stay sane. I guess that is what I was trying to sat only I sounded a little/A LOT nuts....
I am going to take a break from my H 's drama like I said and just be me and just be stronger.
Thanks BND... wearing a completely new hat for me was going to be fake. my Close friends thought I needed to wear it and I wanted just to set boundaries and still be me. I felt this need to put on this hat and yet I knew he would not change for me. This is so much better and thnks for calming me down. You are a sweetheart. This was far too much for me and yes I need to get back to that safe place... it just seemed he was laughing at me being so serene. Like I needed to be a *B* in order to get some respect. I dunno it is hard to explain,,, and yes I have been dramatic and sounding off and I havent had anyone but you tell me it was ok to be just me. Sure I could have told myself that but that would have been too easy. ;\) Seems like I learn the hard way and you know I will say I am tired of the way he treats me at times but yes I do love him,,,, I do appreciate the support here and you listening to my long posts and helping me ... the few friends I had I guess have not DBed ever and so I thought maybe they have a point and I need to change who I am and no I dont ,, I cant. I can polish myself off more but being something that I am not was making me crazy for a few days.
BND~ thanks once again. It has taken me a lot of work to love me and bring my self esteem back up and I appreciate your post . GOD bless you. I promise to GO back to me.
Gosh I am rambling and probably dont make sense.. and yeah when I read my angry tirade this morning I sound not like ME at all. But better here than to him and to think I really needed to overhaul me into a *B*, and I am a beautiful Woman who deserves to have my tranquility. I think ( I KNOW) I need a break from my mind racing.
Thanks for the sweet 2x4...
I really appreciate you all here so much and will keep working on my self esteem and setting boundaries.

Have a great week and thanks for the reply. You are a blessing.
Love, Ali