HSS
I know you are hurting, but you are doing exactly the same thing for the past 2 years.
STOP!!!!
YOU need to change the cycle.
Go back and check out your posts from almost 2 years ago, they are almost the exact same as they are now.

TIME FOR BOUNDARIES.
TIME TO STOP THE HEAD GAMES.
TIME TO MAKE SOME RULES.

You do not need this Man, you love him, you want him but stop telling yourself that you need him.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.