I'll be in Vegas Wed-Sat for business, BIL is getting the hotel so I'm not sure where we're staying. I think he has "deposited" enough $ in a few of the casinos that he gets free rooms, I know we stayed downtown at some hotel for free last time we met him there.
Nikki. I'm sure we will have fun. I was kinda in the dumps today myself. Wonder if I'm pmsing! I got H a cool hammock...he mentioned one that was on sale- the rope kind that are flimsy. Well, I got the nicer kind that are fabric and you can get on much easier and it's big..fits two. Well, he was like, oh, it's not the blah blah kind. so I'm just like, whatever. I can never get what he really wants. He almost always takes back my gifts and exchanges them. He was always upset that I never used his gifts, but he did the same thing because half of mine he would take back. So, oh well. I'm over it. just still kinda down and the kids are driving me crazy. Hope your doing good this weekend!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
JDK. that would be cool, to get free rooms! But then, who knows how much $$ your BIL has dropped! Hope you have lots of fun there!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Sorry you were down about the gift, ST - hope you're doing better today.
How'd your solo go??
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Thanks Nikki. Guess I'm okay with the gift thing. We took it back and got our weedeater fixed instead. It is funny though him wanting something practical. so I guess that's good. spent half as much.
My solo went good i think. I had several compliments so that was very cool! I was so nervous though, and you can tell by my voice, well, if you knew how I normally sing without being nervous.
If you guys want to hear it, you can click on this link and I think it'll take you to the song. just click the download button and it should start playing. It's a really pretty song.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
oh, and just to get this all out. I'm okay now though.
But yesterday was really hard. you know I had mentioned to my H about hearing me sing, and he didn't sound that thrilled. Well, I thought maybe he would come still. But. nope. saw the kids walk through the doorway by themselves as usual and I got overwhelmed. I had to stop myself from crying and just started praying. I actually thanked God for humbling me. This really gives me opportunity to constructively talk to H about something I have a problem with. Well, I did collect myself, and luckily I didn't ever really cry.
After church I checked the txts and noticed he had text me that the kids were there and that I would do a good job singing. So that was nice. I wish I had read it BEFORE church though.
BUT, then at home we started play fighting around and as he was holding me in front of him (so he couldn't see my face) I said "you made me sad today" in a kid like voice. he said why, and I said because I was hoping you would come. He said sorry. I know I didn't do that at all right. I'm so bad at it. I need some little fairy to hit me with a broom whenever I say stupid things! I'm sure I could have made it much much worse though.
oh. and the next news. although it's not THAT bad, but still. He mentioned the lake. well, this is the same lake that he lied about seeing you know who. the lake that he was going to go by himself and do a lot of "thinking", and I had written him a letter about how proud I was of him going alone to ride his motorcycle. Well, when I wrote it, I knew that most likely he would see her sometime during the trip. I still don't know if she was at the lake or not, but I know he drove down south to meet her, or maybe dropped her off. who knows. he's never admitted. Well, I said, I'm not sure I'm okay with that because I'm still associating things with certain things. I knew he understood because he brought it up again today because of a friend of ours talking about it. and he said, I know you don't like "xx"lake, but so&so blah blah. I asked well, do you remember reading my letter? did you have any good memories of me while there? like, if he was starting to think he may want me, or whatever. well, he said, couldn't really remember the letter, but he remembered the package it was in. ug. he doesn't remember anything that he ever said during that time, or what I talked about or gave him. Even though he has one of the best memories. So, either he was really really in lala land then, and really doesn't remember, or he's just not wanting to tell me. he's annoying. lol
okay, totally didn't mean to go off on all that. oops.
Basically, I'm feeling better today overall. I went rollerblading with s3 in stroller and that was good. got rained on, but it was fun. Found out my g-ma finally started drinking MonaVie and the next day she took her car to the wash, went somewhere else, then went to KFC. This is a lot for my granny, who is a little frail 90lb 80+ woman. Then, at KFC, she got a wing and a leg, and she always gets that, eats half of it and saves the rest for dinner. Well, she ate the WHOLE thing and she couldn't believe she was so hungry! it was so funny. you just have to know my granny. I think it's great, because she must be getting more active and her body's saying FEED ME!
okay, that's all for today.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Great to hear your solo went well and that you H sent you a msg saying you'd do well. Sorry to hear he didn't show up in person, but it sounds like he was supporting you regardless. I've never been rollerblading with a stroller! Sound like your grandma is ready to take up rollerblading with you...
haha JDK, that is a very funny vision, of my 4ft+ granny in rollerblades!
I guess your right that he was being supportive. I wish it was more of an active support. but it's better than nothing.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
ST - can't wait to listen to your solo! Computer I'm on now has terrible sound but I'm going to listen to it on my other one tonight.
Sorry you had such a let down on Sunday, I was really hoping your H would come through for you. Sounds like you handled it ok - yes it could have been better, but at least you said something and I think that's good.
So glad your granny is doing so well! Hope she continues to feel better.
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
Wow ST I just listened to your solo, and that is absolutely beautiful!! You are an amazing singer. Thanks for sharing that with us!
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
I'm sure I could have made it much much worse though. 