Well the next event I was considering was the 4th of July fireworks. I was kinda thinking along the lines, "Me and daughter are going to the fireworks, if you want to come along, you are invited........"
I guess I will see where we are at in 2 weeks before I even throw that one out. This could be a hard one for her though, as when we figured back she thinks that our daughter was concived after the fireworks 6 years ago..........
Swashy said, "I know you want to "fix" this. I know that you want to figure it out and do everything you can to make this work. Unfortunately in this crazy backwards dbing world...the thing that is going to give you the best chance of fixing this...is to just leave it alone and focus on fixing YOU." I do agree with statement.......and need to continue working on that effort.
One of the hard things for me is sometimes I vacillate so much. I want this fixed now....or ended now. I need to be more patient. It is hard though, because this journey is so lonely at times. I did consider my wife to also be my best friend, and I do miss that part so much too. Just having someone to have a conversation with.
Nomo.......your in depth analysis does help me so much. I appreciate it. I have to admit that sometimes I worry that you spend so much time helping me and others that you are neglecting yourself and your own situation. Of all the people on here, you are the one that I would like to someday have a phone conversation with.
I also feel guilty that I do not offer more "advice" to other people, and that is probably a self esteem thing, but I feel I am in a place where I dont have alot to offer.
Aww I have to get the work boots on and out the door so I am not late for work. Take care people.
