My H has kind of answered my questions but has not really said anything other than she must have had a moment of madness.
He is adamant he hasn't dated her or slept with her. He is adamant she never mentioned having feelings for him before he received the letter. He is adamant that he told her he was angry about the letter but cannot remember exactly what was said or what her response was. (I don't feel he can have stated to stay away seeing as how she rang him the following week on her way home from work and he told her to pop in and she did!!) He is adamant that he doesn't hear from her anymore and has deleted her number from his phone but as you will see from above post that could have been a lie too until he deleted that entry this afternoon in front of me. He says he loves me and isn't about to leave again because things are tough right now and says he is just extremely sorry I have been so hurt by this and by the whole events of last year. He says there isn't anything else he can say because he just keeps saying the same things over and over. Every morning since I found this letter the first thought that has crossed my mind are the words "we love each other that must count for something and I'm still horny for you if you'd oblige" that are written in the letter. It makes me feel physically sick. I can't bear him to touch me right now or kiss me or anything. This has blown one big hole in everything we had built back up. We were closer than we had been for years and it was fantastic. I'm afraid it may have all gone now because I just don't think I can trust him as far as I can throw him. I never ever ever thought I'd have the problem of trusting him with women - he was never really into chatting women up or anything when he was young and single. He just wanted to wait for the right one (me).
