Amy, As for the drinking on her part, I found out, actually should of remembered, her grandmother use to drink gin and tonics by the pool, her mom, sister and her were doing it as a toast to her. Didn't make me much happier, but did take the edge off to a degree.
As for her attitude and such, still not sure on that, her dad actually came and talked to me later in the afternoon. He just wanted to know how I was and I basically told him this is BS, fortunately we get along, and he didn't take it too personnely.
He said W did want me here, but at same time was having torn emotions on what to do, and her way was to escape today. He let me know the rest of the family was not to happy about it but at the time this was all going on they were not sure what to do about it.
He also let me know that in the little they had talked, he believes she is royally confused about the situation as in, she loves me, but is scared that she will never know if my drinking will ever start up again or am I truly done with alcohol. Her fear is that if she invests time, energy, and mainly her heart, that I will fall off the "sobriety train" and she will be hurt and is afraid of possibly going thru this all over again.
It did make me feel better that is the main concern she has, and that no other person is out there for her.
Talk about 180's, I can do and will continue to do, but this one takes years not days, weeks, or months. The only bad part about her fear is, the only way to show her is over time, as in 1, 5, 10, 15, 20 years. My hope she is around to see those milestones come and go herself, and doesn't hear about it thru our son over these years, and then go "DAMN" should of stayed with him.
Sorry rambling again!
M 41 W 33 S8 S17 Bomb 3/11/07 S 3/28/07 New beginning? 8/31/07
