Why is this like this?

[NDDT]

Hi guys. Got back from camping with daughter about 2 hours ago. Happy fathers day.

Sorry to report that I broke down on my quitting smoking. I made it 7 days without one, then Friday night I cracked and went and bought a pack. Plan on trying to get back to quitting tommorow. I think this might take a few trys to get it right.

Camping was fun, but one thing that was hard. There were alot more people camping than last time I went. To see all of the couples (happy?) and then just me and my daughter there. Well it did make me feel somewhat sad.

I think I am going to break my total darkness tommorrow when she comes to pick up our daughter. I plan to just say one thing to her. It has been 2 months since I really said anything to her, and I want her to know that I am still here? I dont want her to think that I have moved on past us.

So the olive branch I plan on extending is just the simple statement. "I miss you" and leave it at that.

I dont know, good idea? Be more patient and dark? I mean for all the feelings I have been feeling. The anger. The hurt. The sadness. It all does boil down to, I do miss her. And I think I want her to know that I do...........