Thanks FLICKA .. you do understand this well. Makes a lot of sense what you are saying..... my DAD actually was and still is an achoholic. I guess I have been avoiding looking at my H in that way.... and then this morning after sleeping on it... I realized he may have meant that I was crazy like my ex GF ( LOOOOOOOOONG STORY, her boyfriend works with my h and she always calls private~) cause he kept insisting I "KNEW" this *B* and I was acting just like her.. and so yeah I do react to much to his drunken state and until he gets bettter I wll have to do something. COG had mentioned to me about some program so even though I am not the drinker I need help to deal w/this.
He just called like nothing and was being sweet and he said he was referring TO XXXXXXX and I said yeah I just figured that out and I said well why did you not just say her name... he said well cause "he " was in the room. NICE HUH? and I said well I could barely understand you and I assumed you meant you had a GF.. YOU called me all angry and you made no sense and you were whispering... this has to stop... He is like OH gees I do NOT have a GF.... just stop thinking like that!
I need to get off the crazy train and stay off it AND I am going to have to develop another strategy to deal with this cause this is more than I can handle and I need to stay calm when he acts like this... IS that good? And I actually am very spritual and do believe in GOD ~ but I never go to church,,, I just live right ~ you are so cute~ thanks for the POST. It really gives me a lot to think about! That is why I post here to get advice and help when MY eyes are closed and I am too close to my sitch and cant see clear. WOW where to begin to deal with this.... he is Happy as a lark and this up and down mood swing is not something I am able to deal w/ now so I guess like DBing until he is well I will have to learn how to cope and keep me sane and safe. STOP REACTING.. yesterday I did blow up at him and it just made it worse and this morning when he called I did say this is too much and you made no sense and b/c he thinks it is ok I never got an apology???????????????
