From earlier conversations we've had I am under the impression my wife didn't do anything for me for Father's Day. But we'll see.
I'm picking the girls up tomorrow at 10:30 AM. Evidently there is something they want to do with me but I have no idea what. My wife didn't say anything about what is was either.
I'm not sure how I'll feel if she doesn't do something for me for Father's Day. I at least got her a card for Mother's Day.
Now journaling...
You know it's odd the last 2 nights I've gone to Starbucks, sat outside and written in my journal. I haven't done any writing in it in 4 months. My latest entry was all about what I want to do if we get divorced. With that a very unexpected feeling has come over me, a bit of peace in some respects. Peace at being on my own but also this strange feeling of apathy too. That is very, very unexpected. Sure I'd like her to contact me but all of the sudden I'm not sure about us. I'm not sure I want there to be an us anymore. I'm not sure about this feeling either, is it temporary, where did it come from, why did it come on so suddenly? Geez I have way to many questions that roll about in my head!
Last edited by catfan; 06/17/0703:55 AM.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
