Stillme's Chapters Continue Some More

[stillme]

Thanks, Nick, and welcome to my world. lol

Going Dim as a Cheeless Tunnel? I hadn't considered that, but certainly there was no cheese in the interactions H & I were having for the weeks prior to Dim starting last week. W/the easing of the Ugliness by, well, quitting most of the interaction/words btwn us, I (and probably H as well) am able to breathe & not live so emotionally (My detaching was taking huge hits during that time). Now, instead of H throwing darts or outright spew and me being (mostly, lol) calm & detached (which actually may have made him even MORE apt to spew - Did you ever try ot argue w/someone who refused to engage? Makes you nuts, huh?) we are pretty much even-ing out emotionally; I'm better able to SHOW the Better Me/180's & focus on me; and H may (or may not --?) feel eased as well.

Even so, I just remembered that H took just an extra moment to catch my eye as he stood in the doorway before leaving jj this morning (I rarely look him fully in the face & only make min. eye contact) & say "I'll see you [or was it 'talk to you'?] later." He did the same thing only it was just a eye-catch thing when he left this eve.

So, my conclusion is that Dim is working for me (us) - for now. Thanks for checking in w/me - and LOVE the new name btw - tho I was a bit confused for a little while !