Schools Out for the Summer!

[forever21]

Hey girl. I put a lot of pressure on myself too. It's work to take responsibility and continue to stand for your M, while at the same time stand up for yourself. I don't like failure either and perfectionism comes to mind. Here's a link that may be useful to many of you reading this, even if it doesn't apply to you galing... coping.org's perfectionism

It's not easy to keep putting ourselves out there with the WAS. When interactions don't bring you closer, it doesn't mean you caused the outcome... and in the long run it may not have served you best anyway to have brought the WAS closer to you in the short-term. I think you are setting the tone for how you expect to be treated... and that's a good thing. I recognize this because this is exactly what my C has me doing.

At the same time, I think it's good to be able to observe and reflect upon the results we're getting. Sometimes there is something we can do different to push the wheel in a forward motion. Of course this doesn't serve you well if you are going to feel like a failure, or like it is your fault, if/when it doesn't work.

I know exactly what you're talking about with it being hard around family. I just spent a lot of time around family with my grandpa's death and it wasn't easy... just ask Julie. How nice that your aunt is so understanding. Sounds like she offered you great support. I know how that can make you miss your H too. I recognized that being around family had caused me to start feeling more hopeful again, which wasn't great for me. I hope you can take the positives and enjoy your family.

I agree that you are too good for your H right now. I think he didn't do a good job at getting his own needs met in your M. And you know that he will only be happy when he figures out how to make himself happy.

Yep, you will be ok.