You are making yourself crazy here. You can't fix this. Nothing you do matters. You could probably go over and set his apartment on fire while firing automatic rifles in the air, and it wouldn't matter.
You could show up naked with a spam hat and it wouldn't matter.
'Cause you can't fix this.
So drop it, please. Just do what you want to do for you. Only you. Because you matter. and you deserve it.
