Well as of now I have not heard from my W about the D. I thought this maybe my game plan...I will not fight the devorce but neither will I be the one to make it go faster. When I reply'd to her sms I simply stated that she should call me later that day to talk about it...I am still without the said call.
I don't know, but I get the feeling that she would like me to contact her & say, lets get this thing rolling...She could then put the blame on me rather than herself. I thought of telling her, at some point.."This is your choice, not mine, I will not fight it but I will not initiate something that I don't want. This is Your choice & is somehting that if/when becomes the wrong choice, then it is you that is to blame & not me". I probably won't say or tell her this but it's what I feel right now.
I must say that I am feeling positive about my own life, I have no idea why, but I am, i'm looking forward to all the plans I have for myself.
Today was the first time in a long time that I was riding my motercycle, I had a great time too.
I thought today about all the stuff with my sitch & if I care...It confuses me sometimes because I came to the conclusion that I don't care. Yes I want my W back but I dont care either way.
I have thought about the fact that she is with the OM...Do I care? Well it's does not make me angry or jelous, I don't know what to make of that...
I used to walk around the house & see things that made me stop & think about my W, things that would make me think for a while & feel sad...now the same things make me think for a min or two & its gone...Do I care? Maybe it's all part of the detachment that I am making.
