You know what you have a very valid point,,,, he does have a real problem drinking but I guess that scares me even more that he cannot control himself while drinking. So what goes on and on is his guilt and he medicates it and starts over again everyday. And I think my cup was brimming with all his cheating and now it is overflowing. And yes I will most likely stand for my M and yes I love him dearly but he is taking me down with him, and what makes me angrier is he lives with his crew and had mentioned there are girls there but that he respects me and so I do not like that he knows I am ok with it cause I trust him and then he laughs at me.
I do so appreciate everyones input and you all have made me calmer as crazed as I still sound,,, I guess you all are making me see that to take it easy and maybe my view is skewed cause I love him..... this is hard and yet all it has done is made me realize time to take the next step and get tougher and if he cant deql with it then he will have to figure tht out for himself. No I ont throw this away over some *W* but I dunno if I can do this year in and year out like this..... My emotions are so back and forth and yet I am ok, crying but ok. God bless....
