Seems like a long day. Missed FLF (Free Lunch Friday) with my co-workers because I had to drive 45 mins away to meet with some people about a contract that I'm trying to save. $250k into a project that is about to fall apart, my boss doesn't want to lose the money and I can't blame him. Had a 2hr conversation with them, started off with them having the attitude of "no way" and by the end "we'll think about it." We'll see if it was a noble effort or a waste of time or a productive meeting. I felt good about it, I know I'm doing everything I can to make it work, doesn't fix the $250k issue, but I'm not sure I have anyway to do that at this point.
Went straight from that meeting to IC session, still feeling good, burden free, going strong, not lonely, not desperate, not sad, not depressed, not worried. IC wants me to bring my mother in once or twice. My mom paid for her own flight today to come visit week after next, then she is driving back with me when I pick up the kids at the end of the month since she lives where they're at right now with their mom. Big contrast to my dad who can't seem to even call me anymore. I never got to any stores today with my running around, so no Father's Day present for my dad yet. Kind of hard to get it to him on Sunday now. Might still do something, not too motivated. My kids went to visit him for a bit today, I told them to maybe spend some time on Father's Day with him since none of his kids will be around and since they're not here with me.
Wife called this evening, talked a bit about the kids and them wanting to go to the online computer game place for an all-night event tonight, then she wants them to come to her apartment so they can sleep all day while she is at work. After work tomorrow she mentioned twice about "getting her hair done." I could have asked "whatcha getting done" but didn't, thought about showing some interest, but too much likelihood of it being negative I think, not sure tho'. She asked about my day, "did you sell anything today" so I told her about my 2 hr meeting and also told her that I found out today that now I'm going to Vegas next week to meet with my boss (her brother) and 3 others to brainstorm about the business and meet with some lenders. She said that should be fun, I was tired and didn't have as much PMA and ethusaism that I should have had, not much I care about in Vegas, except Supercross and that was last month and I missed it for the 1st time in 4 or so years. Should be good to get out of town, just adds the stress of finding someone responsible enough to care for 5 dogs, 2 cats and a parrot while I'm gone from Wed-Sat.
Tired today for some reason, might have stayed up too late and gotten woken up too early by my wife's morning call. Haven't used a sleeping pill in 3-4 days and have actually been dreaming more and sleeping longer as a result. Nice to not have to depend on the pills to sleep anymore, but it was nice to be able to decide to go to sleep at 9pm and pop a pill and go to sleep instead of having to stay up until I'm exhausted so I can get to sleep.
PMA - Good GAL - Good Detached - Check Feel Loved - Check
