Feeling a bit blue today. No doubt it's these mood swings that got my wife sometimes. I can be jovial and happy one day and lightly depressed the next. It's actually a common trait with ADD/ADHD. Sometimes I get bummed just admitting I am a 41 year old man with ADD. But hey it is what it is and I have to live with it.
The other thing about my swings is I can almost predict them but I never really do. I know after such a big positive day or days I am going to have a balancing period. It's not bad by any means, I don't lash out, I don't sit and sulk, I just get a bit quiet and would rather just be by myself. But sometimes if I have too much alone time when I am in a good mood I get drug down like today. Today I am just tired of being alone, tired of not being with my family, my wife, my kids.
The other thing about me is I draw energy and get re-energized by being with people. Whereas my wife to recharge she has to be alone. She's an introvert and I am an extrovert personified. So right now I have just spend way too much time alone and need a serious boost.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
Funny, you keep saying how alike our situations are and you're right - only the opposite - My w is the extrovert and I'm more introverted. She thrives on being with other people and chatting and hanging out. I'm sure that's part of her unhappiness, as we haven't done a lot of that in several years. Me, I've had the same 4-5 friends for 30 years! They're the best friends a guy could have, but they're all married and have their families with them, and I'm tired of dragging them down into my crap.
I just Mountain Bike, or Skateboard, or work out, or read, or pray. That's pretty much me if I'm not at work. It's helping, I'm getting to the point I don't think about W ALL the time. It is a bit liberating, but I def want to be with her RIGHT NOW.
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
I'm getting to the point I don't think about W ALL the time. It is a bit liberating, but I def want to be with her RIGHT NOW.
Me too
My wife was suppose to bring the kids over here today after she got off and eat dinner with me. I made dinner had everything ready and still no wife and kids. I finally said to hell with it, I'm gonna call her and see whats up. She was at her mom's (where she's been staying) sleeping. Said she had to go in early this morning got to her mom's and fell asleep. But is on her way over now.
I've had the best week this week at pretty much everything. Even the wife has been extra nice and I thought ahh crap, she's gonna go off the deep end again, haha, she was just asleep.
Well boys I wish I could say I don't think about her a great deal. With all the goings on these last 5 weeks it's hard not to think about her all the time now. Prior to that I was getting decently detached and wasn't thinking about her too much. Then that Thursday before Mother's Day and then Mother's Day itself. Yes the last 5 weeks have been good, even with the sep agreement stuff but still so much progress. And therein lies the reason why I can't seem to get her out of my head.
You know sometimes love sucks! LOL!!
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
I guess this is the board for me now. Seperated, but still very civil, says she is still hell bent on getting a divorce, has all the paperwork completed (she wants to file without L), but has yet to actually turn them in or talk to a L. I've had good DB times and miserable DB times like all of us, haha. Looks like I am gonna be in this for the long haul. Been at it since the end of March already.
If your at all interested and do the myspace thing, I been blogging about stuff on there. http://myspace.com/markshelly
