As always, thanks for your feedback, Whatisis and 1210. It is well-taken.
I'm exhausted and am headed off to bed but just wanted to check in and see what you all had to say about what is going on. I also wanted to tell you that....
H told me that he loved me this morning!!!
Before he left for his trip, he was sitting on the bed next to me, and he told me to drive safe and have a nice weekend. And then he said that he loves me! I tried to catch the words coming out of my mouth before they did, but I was too late, as I said "You do?" I know, stupid... It just blurted out. I know I've told you that he has said it a couple of times in passing before but that I thought it may have just been from force of habit... I have never made a big deal of it or said anything about it. Maybe that's why this time I did say something, just to see what he would say... At any rate, I thought that was a big step for us. I certainly didn't say it first to him or ask him anything about it or talk about us or the R or anything whatsoever. We were simply telling each other to have a nice weekend. Anyway, it was really nice and made me feel really good.
Am off to my parent's house this weekend for Father's Day. Am looking forward to it. I have a massage and dinner scheduled with a friend next Thursday. And then next weekend we are going to H's family's cabin for the weekend to celebrate Father's Day with his dad and family.
I have been getting caught up a little more with work stuff. I still have lots to do but am making some headway, which feels great.
Anyway, I will write more later but just wanted to check in. At this point I am still planning on talking with H on Monday at our meeting. I'm scared but feel it's the right time to do it.
