THanks RMG. I'm with you! Anyways, a little update. W called this morning and asked if I could shut her sprinklers off while she was at work. I said yes, then she mentioned that she needed to get someone to cut her grass. I ended up doing that after the water. She called and thanked me, saying that was too sweet of me and that I should not have done that.
She ended up coming over to pick up Daughter and she came into the room and gave me a big hug telling me thank you again. This the first hug in 2 years!!! It was nice and unexpected I hugged her for a half minute, then pulled away before it got awkward and showed her the event I had been talking about. She seemed happy I told her about it.
She then talked about her car accident case she is in. I was subpeonaed to testify, and she gave me a copy of her testimony. I only mention this because she kept saying many times that I shouldn't read too much into her testimony, that if there was anything bad about me or us not to take it personally.
I read through it and it was hard at times bringing up the past, but I got to see where she was coming from I guess. It is so odd to hear her talk about how we were "so in love, so close, so perfect for one another," and suddenly she felt like a flip was switched and she didn't love me anymore.
She ended the night by inviting me to her grnadmother's breakfast and dad's cookout on father's day, and too a company event to the zoo that she said I should join her and my daughter on!
I have found that these glimmers of hope have been horrendous on my PMA, making it go crazy from one moment to another. So i'm just chugging along trying to keep my GAL and DB goals on track. If she wants to jump on for a ride, we'll deal with it at that junction. Until then (or until a derailment ) I'll stay open and let her feel her way through it.
I hugged her for a half minute, then pulled away before it got awkward and showed her the event I had been talking about. She seemed happy I told her about it. 
