Why do these things happen III

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I have been keeping my mouth shut, it is killing me though.
Even when I am around her and doing my best DB'ing she is staying really quiet.

We leave in about 24 hours. I am scared sh*tless. At the present moment my stomach is in knots. I know I am going, but I am having serious thoughts, that much time = that much time of screwing something up.

Her mother actually called me and is giving her DB book this weekend on her own accord. Not sure if that is a good thing or not, she said I could call and tell her not too if I felt that was best, so I am still thinking.

I wish I knew why I was dreading going. My other thought is this is possible the last time I will be around her for this much time at once, to where it feels like it might be make or break time.

Ok, I am rambling again.