Thanks Lisa. Today I feel more hopeless than I have felt so far about the survival of this marriage. I am trying to figure out what steps to take to finish it. This is extremely difficult but I have not love left for my husband. I really don't/ I care but there is no love there. Today I took care of some financial aspects. I called the state board to get my license reinstated for cosmetology. If there were no little grandchildren I really wouldn't think too much about this choice it would be fairly simple.We have been so active with them and kept them here much of the time. This is so hard. Also my oldest son is in a position where a divorce would really be an embarrassment to him. If it were just the 2 of us he would have been served already. He is still not home, but asks when he can come back so we can work things out. I don't have the strength. Everyday is a struggle and I think if I can get out of here and do something besides look at these walls I might feel better. I took your advice and gave myself a pedicure last night! My toes look nice but I still feel crummy. Lol! Honestly after the last years ( which were good ones) I never thought I would have to deak with this again. I put mu heart and soul into keeping a home. Now I don't care. Everything is piled up and I just don't care. I know this house will have to be sold and divided. I think that is how it works. Love, Violets
