Thanks CF. I'm glad people here think it went well. I'm such an emotional wreck right now, I have a hard time seeing it today.
I guess this is what happens when you repress your feelings for so many years.
She brought up a game back in Nov when my team lost and I got pissed, and she said I cried, she said, "Oh, now he cries over a srupid game!" I said, laughing, "I didn't cry over a game." And she laughed with me and we made a joke of it.
She WANTED me to show my emotions. She wanted to share that with me and help me through hard times, she even said, "That's who I am!" I about died, because I knew that!!! I knew it when I married her, we used to talk ALL the time. I reminded her of that and she remembered.
We actually talked about several things that happened when we were fairly happy and she smiled and laughed and remembered! She even said, there were a lot of good times (That was a 180 for her as of late). So the emotions were all over the place and I think that's why she stayed, it was meeting her need for quality, meaningful conversation, even though the level of drama involved was high, given the subject matter.
Man, I'm a mess. I need a nap...
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
