but I'm starting to think I'm a little crazy for feeling that. Maybe he really doesn't love me, never has, and I've just been living in fairytale land for our entire R.
These doubts are normal and I am so feeling the same way right now, stick with it , do stuff to get your PMA up and back off the expectations. I am still a little behind you in this journey but realising that it just gets harder. You have put your own needs away , ignored your insecurities and worked so hard on your R , now they are creeping out and starting to want to be fed , puting them away now when they are so hungry and can see what they need is much harder.
Stick with it I am sure this is just a downward ride on the coaster and it will head back up soon.
