It took a lot of courage for you to go and sign those documents. Was it really hailing? My goodness - talk about imgery! Sounds like a novel; too bad it isn't, right?
I am trying to imagine how much it would hurt to see their R be formalized in that way, but I can't. All I know is that it would be very painful. Please know that people will not be judging you when they meet her; I have spoken to friends about this, and have come to that conclusion. Those who know you will be disappointed in him, and those who don't will likely have no opinion one way or the other.
AH, I think that once your H signs, you will actually have a new start. All this waiting, wondering, hoping takes its toll, and when you are D'd, I really do believe that one emotional stressor will be gone - that of the fear of divorce. There will be nothing more to fear when it is done.
I'm glad Sam is doing better.
Love, Nicola
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