LOL, it wasn't slutty, it was very nice in fact. She wears nice clothes ( I always saw to that, apparently that was a way I controlled her...) And her make-up is always very light and natural looking. She really doesn't need anything, her face is very beautiful even right when she wakes up in the morning.
I've gotten input from others that women who are done with marriages don't come to meetings dressed up nicely because they don't care. They also don't share feelings because they don't care, and they definitely don't talk to their spouse for 3 hours when they don't have to. So there are some positives, and the fact that she didn't make me sign anything like she said she was going to is good.
Funny thing was anytime she'd soften and feel the spirit working on her, and we'd connect (the Pastor really validated this for me after the meeting, since I was feeling kind of down) she would catch herself and try to harden again, then she'd soften again, and TRY to harden. I mean you want to see a lot of inner conflict in a person, a video of this meeting would have shown you everything.
One really cool thing is we reminisced about some good times and she smiled and laughed about them with me. That was a surprise. An even bigger surprise was when she brought up a bad time and we ended up laughing at it together. That was interesting...
I guess there was some good stuff. I tell you, it's good to go over things like this in your head and talk about it because immediate perspective isn't always correct I guess.
I pray the Pastor will be direct with her in helping her stay positive between now and our next meeting...
We can talk ourselves into defeat or we can talk ourselves into victory - we are creatures of our thinking.
3/31/07 - Hit with a brick, leaving the dent there...
