Ok...so I have kind of been putting this off...putting this up here. Just been unsure what I was going to do and didn't feel like taking heat from people. But since she keeps driving to the hoop...I guess I need to keep moving on.
There is this girl who I have known forever that lives around here. We talk once in a while, etc. I haven't told her what is going on with the W and I...but I also don't really talk about the W to her...so I think she has an idea. She never brings up my W either. She's Dd and is always telling me to keep an eye for a nice guy for her. She's VERY attractive, takes a genuine interest in me, very complimentary, etc.
Well I got an email from her last week saying "Lets get together for a lunch date or a coffee date". I have always in the past run the other way when presented with such offers. BUT...Told her that may not work with the new job but that maybe we could get together for drinks one night. "I'd love that" was her response. I was actually thinking that next Thursday would be a good night...but don't think it would be a good idea for me to do that after mediation...just in case I'm hurting.
So I'll pick another night.....but I feel like if she has made her choice and is continuing to push for this...then I do need to move on. Will this go anywhere - who knows. Not sure I'm really ready for it to go somewhere...but I think I need to force myself to start looking at a life without my W.
I have never once in our 11 years of M...or our 15 years together cheated on her, had an EA or PA or ANYTHING. Not even close. She has been with someone for 3 years now....may still be with him (or someone else) for all I know and wants to D me. She has told me recently that she is not with him...but she has told me that before and it was a lie. I will not do anything that I am not ready to do...but I do feel like I am ready to at least go out and enjoy a woman's company.
