Something I didn't post in that update was a bit about our conversation last Wed. In that conversation she said that her goal with my 40th b-day back in 05 she wanted me to fall back in love with her and I did. But she didn't fall back in love with me and that was and is one of the most difficult things for her to deal with.
Well from last night's short conversation it was clear she really does want to fall back in love with me but is clouded by so much pain and disappointment. She would love nothing more than me to sweep her off her feet again. Granted she didn't say these things exactly but that was the message I got.
Man oh man does that put some pressure on me! I have no idea how to go about it and not put pressure on her. So I guess what I must do is put faith in God, in DBing and apply DBing in everything I do, in us working on being friends again , faith in her and myself.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
