I, too, feel as if all of this is a wake up call from God so I will get my life back in order. Isiah is great. Also try Ezekiel. Lots of stuff about changing your heat in that book. I'm feeling like prayers are being answered in your situation. Are you keeping a journal. I write down my prayers, keep writing them down when they have not been answered, then document them when they are. It is amazing when you actually start keeping up with it. I pray specifically and little prayers. Once, I prayed lightning on my H. Didn't know God would really do it, but I asked God to write it on the wall what my H should do, or send a bolt of lightning. That afternoon, my H was riding his motorcycle and got caught in a lighting storm. I then told God I really didn't want him to hurt my H. I thought is was very interesting. You mentionioned something about watching hail hit a plane or something. I believe God was indeed talking at that time.
Once on the way to work, I told God, "You know I haven't seen H in awhile. You used to arrange for me to bump into him. If it's not too much trouble, could You arrange that again? It just reminds me that You are at work in all this." Well, I did not go home to walk my dog at lunch b/c I had a business luncheon. I debated if I should go afterwards, but I got busy. An hour later, I had this urge that I just had to walk the dog. When I got home guess who was at my house. Right, I did bump into H - in the hallway of our home. (He had been moved out for several months, but was supposedly there to get the mail. The mail was in the kitchen, but he came from the back part of the house.) If he was there snooping, he found my Bible on my bed, as well as my journal. Everything to confirm that I am STANDING for our marriage. I even told him later that I had prayed for that moment. When God does these little things for me, it gives me so much hope. It strengthens my faith. I am uplifted just from writing this to you.
