H kinda came outta the dark, but he's gone again

[Ophelia]

Oh man, sometimes I go through periods where I'm prayin' pretty much 24/7. Prayin' when I go to sleep. Prayin' when I wake up. Prayin' whenever the thought of H (and/or OW) enters my head. Prayin' when I'm not even specifically thinking about H (or OW) but just feeling like crud.

In response to your post..... don't beat yourself up....
It sounds like he got an answer to his question.... he doesn't have to worry about paying the L, so he's now off to plan his adventure and not worry about the $ crunch.

You're probably right, but I wish that if that were the case he would have at least sent a quick reply to tell me that. It's funny actually, one of things he prides himself on these days is that his "new improved" self is now able to tell people exactly what he's thinking, instead of trying to be diplomatic in an attempt to not get people offside. He mentioned at our last C session, (back in Nov) that he can be up front with everyone else, but he still can't do it with me. Maybe in some twisted way it's a good sign that he still cares enough that he can't bring himself to hurt me to my face. He just does it from a distance instead.

You're being far kinder than I'd be able to be.

The version I wanted to send him was more along the lines of:

You were already in debt, and were well aware you were gonna be in even MORE debt over your impending trip to Africa, but YOU still made the decision to get a lawyer involved, resulting in legal fees on top of everything else, so you can cry me a damned river over not knowing how you're gonna pay for it!

*ahem* That wouldn't be very productive DBing though, would it?