Right now, I'm not really sad about it. Life is throwing me obstacles and it does me not good to get upset about them and fight them...I just need to get past them and keep moving forward with MY life.
I am getting excited about the new place. Something just for me.
You know...I do keep coming back to a conversation the W and I had way back last August or September. She said that she wanted us living in two seperate houses, doing our own thing but sharing time together with the kids and getting to know each other again.
I'd like to do that if we can. Not sure if we'll be D'd doing it, not sure if it will make us better friends or if it will save our M. Just kind of looking forward to spending some time with her - yet be independent from one another at the same time.
I know she needs to continue down this road of gaining her independence and her confidence back. I'd need her to have that if we were able to ever have anything together too. I need her stronger then she has ever been. So this is the road that needs to be taken. I really do believe that. From there, we'll just have to see what the future holds. Maybe I'll find someone else, maybe she will or maybe we'll find each other. Who knows...but I'm starting to look forward to whatever the future holds.
