It is finally out, he wants a D

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Back here again, yipee. My H dropped the bomb again last night. If we are keeping track I think this is the third time. This time I am told he wants a D and it is for good.

Tells me he wants 50/50 kis so he won't pay support. NO WAY.

Kids don't know yet.

Looking for apt. Basically wants nothing except them. I told him that is not fair to them to be moved around all the time.

Also told I can afford the house on my own. Even though I can barely do it with his ck, no matter how small it is. But I guess that I have no choice now. I will have to get a second job which means I won't see my kids anyway.

He is selfish and always has been. Says he has lost all emotion for me. Points out ever thing I ever did that he didn't like or disagrees with. Now he tells me, instead of dealing with stuff at the time it happens.

It is really hard not to be nasty to him. He just patted me on the back because I told him I did the dishes and I told him that would be a first for him to do in our marriage. And that he better wash his hand now.

I can't help but be bitter. Sorry world. Be disappointed in me, why not add it to the list.

Don't know how I am going to make it through work today. At least my office mates are friends who know the situation. At least I am home tomorrow, just have to make it through today.

God give me strength, today is the first day of the rest of my shitty, poor lonely life.


6/13/07 D day A day that will live in infamy.