Any of you who have followed my sitch will know I'm a DB success in that after 4 months separation my H came back to work on our M. That was 6 months ago. At first things were wierd as he was still an alien. Then things were fabulous. Then I started feeling angry at not hearing what I thought I deserved to hear (like thanks or sorry) and things started to slide. Then it turns out I really want another child and he's really not bothered so I'm starting to doubt if we have a future.
Anyway the point of this post is that we have been unsettled for a few days because of aforementioned problem. He pops out to work and is longer than I thought and I go into our room to look out the window for him coming home. His wallet is in front of me. I have no idea why, it wasn't a concious decision, but I looked in it and found a letter. From the ow he says he only texted about our problems whom I was never sure if he had had an A with.
The letter was dropped off at our house a couple of months into our reconciliation. It says shes a bit miffed that he didn't call her back on Saturday like he texted he would. It says please don't let the last 8 months go to wast, we have a good time together and we love each other that should count for something. It says we are @~@?~@ good together as a couple (no pun intended wink wink). It says that she just wants to know if he wants to be with her and that if he does they need to sit down and discuss what they want from the relationship. It says she will come and find him at work (they work togheter) on Saturday to talk. It is signed Love, your (name) then it says if you still want me I'm yours. Then there is a PS saying I'm still horny for you if you would oblige x x.
I don't know what to do or think. I went crazy at him in floods of devestated tears and demanded he give me her number so I can ask her for myself. He refused saying he doesn't want someone from work involved in our problems. He says he was shocked rigid when the letter came and put it in his wallet with the intention of destroying it at work. He says he thought "we" couldn't handle him being honest about the letter at that time. He says he doesn't know what the letter means because he's never told her he loves her or been on a date with her or discussed wanting to be with her. He says she just got hold of the wrong end of the stick from their very frequent texting about his M and her R. He says he's never even kissed her let alone slept with her. He basically says she's la la. He can't remember exactly when the letter came and he can't remember when he found out she felt something for him. To make matters worse he was still receiving joke texts from her up till very recently and I presume was responding to them in some way. I even came home from a short errand about 2 months ago to find her in our kitchen. That was after this letter.
Any help? I really am lost. I love him and I wanted to be with him so much but his version of events doesn't make sense to the content of the letter and I know we have no future if I feel I do not know the truth. I have now found her number and don't know whether to contact her to ask her...but would I get the truth from her either?? Aaaaaagggghhh I hate bombs.
