The funny thing is once you're really no longer fused to somebody, it all seems like it should have been so simple.. I actually have thought that, more and more lately.
once you're really no longer fused to somebody, This is the key Mojo. Also add in “fused to an ideal.” I have been sort of fused, and need, and P/A, and giving it one more try, and sticking to some ethical values, and well, lots of other stuff.
One reason I keep doing it over and over again is I still need to work on me. I still don't do some of the boundary things well enough. Oh I do them but not always in a calm, collected, looked up to leadership manner.
I learned the angry, do it my way or the highway being around my stepfather. I rarely used that method. That was leadership by dictatorship.
In the business world I learned co-operation. I had that type of R with BB for a long time. I went back into semi survival mode after my back injury and when the places I worked, were also in survival mode. Survival mode wasn't a drastic form, but an expect a lot less mode.
The strange place I find myself now, is I have more than I ever expected in some areas (estimateable supply) of my life and a dwindling flow (unknown supply) in other areas.
