My heart goes out to both of you while you are still in the middle of your sitchs! Stay strong and be true to yourself. DB, GAL and take care of yourself. That truly helped me make it through the hell I had to endure (that and the great people you meet here ) Just remember that you can't control or change them (no matter how hard you want to or try).
I guess I have been thinking the last day or so and I don't know if I will ask her or not. I think I will just let her know about the event if she is interested she can ask me. It's not because I'm afraid of the rejection, more that I think I got way too excited about some little things that I was hopeful about. I don't need to put myself through that hell again, I just need to stick to my DB and GAL course I have been living and put the rest in God's hands. He helped me through the trials I faced the first time, and only he knows what he has in store for me. If it is in his plans and she is truly having a change of heart she will come back, if not, her loss.
But thats the hard part, I still love her and always will, although it will never be the same after what she did. Even after she did the worst things she could ever possible do to hurt me. I think the WAS will almost never say they are sorry, but who knows. More than likely it would be excuse after excuse of why they left, why we were to blame etc. But then again, I can't imagine being in their shoes and what they must be going through or thinking.
Yes I agree, with you both, they expect our door to be open forever, yet they still send those flaming bags of crap our way constantly.
) Just remember that you can't control or change them (no matter how hard you want to or try).
